BIG decisions

Growing up can be so tough. The endless effort of trying to push the envelope with the limitation of resources looming large can be quite a daunting task. If having to face similar trials and tribulations, our adults would probably throw in the towel in a matter of days, if not hours. As a child, I inhabit a world that seems to be better equipped than you in almost all quarters. We children often meet our inner silence while searching for the most appropriate language to describe the many myriad emotions felt while encountering new things, scary things, un-understood things and things that seem o!-so-familiar..the handful of words in our word basket seem incapable of reflecting all the colours and shapes of the world within. Also, some paths seem un-traversable, some heights too high up to reach, some slopes too slippery and unsure to take a step on, some pebbled pathways seem like they will come undone from under our feet. How then, in the name of Lord, do we explore unchartered lands to discover our adolescence and embark on our very own adventures? We want to navigate the world, the landscapes and the mindscapes, ours and distant, we want to author our own stories, inhabit them to the fullest before we move on to other settings. We want to be friends and foes, caretakers and disciplinarians, teachers and firemen, lions and fishes…we want to internalize all and then decide the course our settled waters would hold for the rest of our lives. Growing up, we feel, is a BIG decision and we want to size it all up before we take the plunge. We want to be sure about being grown-ups.