New page! New me???

Why not??? Why ever not? I think it would be a great idea, a better deal, for all around, and most importantly me. 

 While I hear the rhythmic sleep breaths of my two toddlers, everything seems settled, resting except my pounding heart and my chaotic thoughts. They seem to come rushing out, one on top of the other, having found the transient green light on a clear roadway. They want to race each other to the finish, literally, not wanting to freeze and perish midway. My life as it wants to be ceases to exist once the rhythmic breathing gives way to the we-come-to-life-again movements by the twosome. And therefore, for the very little time that I thaw my life from the deep freeze compartment into room temperature normalcy, all my senses develop an emergency code reaction like behavioral flowchart and my sensories – all jumbled in the madness to get themselves registered and attain an elongated breathing span - lose their vitals and come across as someone else, altogether. That’s the mixed up state  I freeze and thaw in. sometimes, I think the thawing will eventually become pointless as it will only add to the reigning confusion. Then, I will become the ice princess, frozen in time and state, cold from inside out, unfeeling, unfettered, un-thawable…and for forever. What a pity!